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Image dump for any cover art or related pictures I create for FIMFiction. If I start doing other artwork, I may post it here too.
Well, since they're online classes, they've started just a few hours ago...
I already feel behind since I'm just so tired and don't know how i'll be able to focus or keep up...have to look at that e-mail too that I haven't bothered with.

Today (yesterday?) has not felt good at all...I feel so weak and uncomfortable, powerless and kind of lonely. Maybe I should have a shower and nap...but I feel like I need to do things, at least log into my class website and check on everything. I wish something could hold me up and keep me going in this dark, long tunnel that I feel like I'm crawling through.

Manchmal, fühle ich, dass ich bestehe nur, um verwendet zu werden...und das alle wird von mir verdient...
Sind die Freunden, die Geliebten ebenso, so vorübergehend? Ich hoffe nicht, aber immer habe ich Angst davor...

please ignore me and my disjointed thoughts. i'm really sorry for being me v.v
  • Drinking: tea


I seem to be feeling worse day-by-day...

I don't know how to describe it, but I feel trapped, and the feeling makes me feel really uncomfortable and...crushed under its weight. I can't do anything to escape these feelings...and the anxiety from classes and others...

I'm trying to keep motivation to reply to everything, do classwork, or anything else, but my mind and my body just want to curl up and die. So weak and tired...
I wish I knew what was wrong...I just feel wrong...
I promise I'm trying my best to reply to everything...sorry I'm so slow :c
I don't think this is worthy of a I weird for wanting to call everyone (at least everyone that feels friendly to me or that I feel close to) 'dear' or 'sweetie'? I used to do that more often...but I've begun suppressing that habit in more recent times because I'm afraid of people thinking it's weird, that I'm being affectionate  with every given person I address like that (well, in a sense I suppose that's kind of true...), or that I'm just creating an 'uncomfortable distance' or 'invasion of personal space' by doing that...
Haha, I finally found my old backstories I wrote for those dremora! Time to upload~<3 (to my scraps)
(my writing was bad...but it was more of a vent than an actual attempt at writing)
Maybe I'll write a story about them, or even an MLP crossover/"HIE" style fiction...
I'm not really sure where to put this...but uh...Kitty-Loves-All, I wrote out about 95% of the last reply to your comment and then accidentally pressed the NoScript button and just killed the whole reply ;-; Ugh that makes me feel like feels like I wasted all that time, and I went into such depth on it :c


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SoulfulWingedOne Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
Hello there!! Welcome to DeviantArt!! Hope you have a nice stay. ;) :heart:
TexotliKauayotl Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2016
Hiya! Thank you! :heart: I hope you do as well :P (I know it's a little late but I suppose it still counts since you've only been on for 3 months ^.^; ) And I hope you have a nice day too :3
SoulfulWingedOne Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
Haha thanks!
TexotliKauayotl Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2016
You're welcome! :3
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ChaosPhantom444 Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Hello and welcome to Devintart!
So happy you can join our community. :)
TexotliKauayotl Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2016
Thank you! I'm happy to have gotten such a warm welcome from everyone :3
ChaosPhantom444 Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome :)
TexotliKauayotl Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2016
Kitty-Loves-All Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016  Student Digital Artist
Hello and welcome the odd realm of Deviant Art! 

Enjoy your stay!Twilight Sparkle - Hai 
TexotliKauayotl Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2016
Hehe, thank you!
I hope I will ^.^;
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